Sand Above My Head

The entire time when i was away i had so many random thoughts. So many things stumbled in my head. Every second there was something new. Something i realized .

I was at Swiss Garden Lumut for 3 days. This huge land that goes on forever. I was on duty. OK, so there were a few things i realized and some so weird..

First, i realized that, i wasn't dependent on my cellphone. I completely ignored it, used it to sms and call my family. Usually when i am home, my phone would follow me where ever i go, as it had been a habit of mine to keep it close by just in case of an emergency. So this time when i was away i wasn't even bothered made me realize that i was to clingy in being in relationship or just texting a friend or something. I was always dependent. It took control of me. And i know that now i have to change and make it better, to not cling on to my cellphone.
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And i read somewhere that it takes you half the time of your relationship to get over it. So if were in once for a year, it would take you six months to get over it. 0.0

Second, i am getting a bit too quite. I know people change, its a normal process, but am changing so much that i don't know if its gonna change me forever. In a bad way. I hope not. I am a fun exciting person, trust me. But i am slowly losing it.

Third, I've spread my butter to thin on a slice of bread. I need a breather. I want to be so involved that i am losing myself in the process. Losing everything around me. Everything i was, everything there is.

Fourth, am i still who i am?

Honestly.. I am, but it feels as if my getting buried. The feeling is as if there is a handful of sand poured on my head daily, letting me sink in deeper.


Fifth, i am most probably still allergic to prawn. I had prawn one night, and i itched like mad. An unpleasant experience..

Am done for now..

Good Night.