wisdom of choice

I rather not be nice,

i cant find or see a point in it anymore.

I have lost all hope in the people around me,

My advices are useless,

i listen and its no necessary for comments

and if you insists i will tell you.

I can be a bitch in disguise

and its not for the heck of it.

I really can snap you back into reality .

I am loud ,

so what i scream the words to make a statement.

Now all there is left is a scar

No matter what i stay put and cant move

I am not weak neither i am strong

But it seems that all my confidence have left

Thank no one i am good at nothing

Now i will make amends and say my prayer

i just miss the places and the people

i wish a wish that was

Its been quite sometime, to be exact its been 3 months. I have now lost the people who i use to share random facts, gossips, tales, and everything to . Does this happen to every individual after high school? I did expect each of us to have seperate lives after high school , but not immedietly after. I didnt feel it as much until now. I had rehearsals to look foward to every weekend. When that ended, nothing seemed to have fit into place. All those words turned the other way around , every single one of it. Now the person i use to be able to express all of it to has been out, i need that person, i am not use to being without that person. Why after all that has happend i finally found the reason to it all. I need that person so much.